Wife and mom are my two most important titles. I’m a Dietitian by training and like to call myself a Battle Strategist because I firmly believe that we are all warriors! I want us to be empowered warriors with the good energy and health needed to fight our daily battles. We can do this Warrior Moms! We have an important job to do!
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Sitting in the chemotherapy infusion room of a cancer center. A dear friend beside me getting a chemo treatment. I’ve been here before. For some reason, God has orchestrated my steps to have knowledge and experience in oncology. I’ve worked in Oncology and I’ve volunteered in Oncology. I’ve walked with many friends on their cancer journey. I walked with my mama on her cancer journey.
I’ve seen friends beat cancer and celebrated with them. I’ve been at the beside of many others as they lost their battle but received the gift of eternal life.
I was with my dear friend Manda Maxwell, a young mom of 35 as her body succumbed to her 3rd battle with cancer. And I was there when my sweet mama took her last breath.
But now I find myself tired. A cancer center is a depressing place to be. Looking around, I see fear, anxiety and sadness. Complete honesty…. If there is any place that I question the goodness of God, it is at a cancer center. It is such a horrific and devastating disease. Why does a good, loving God allow this? It is such a huge question. And one that I’m not sure that I’m equipped to adequately answer. But I wanted to give you a brief view of my oncology experiences and how I’ve seen God move in the most difficult of circumstances.
The Bible doesn’t promise us that there will not be suffering in life. John 16:33 says “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” His word reminds us that trouble and sufferings are a part of this life on earth and often serve a powerful purpose.
Romans 5:3-4 “Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance. Perseverance, character, and character, hope.”
What I cling to are the promises that although we go through difficult times, He never leaves our side. As I went through the horrible experience of losing my mom. I really clung to the verse found in Deuteronomy 31:6……”Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them; for the Lord your God goes with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you.” Now, that is a promise!!! A promise that He will never leave us!! Ever!!
And I will tell you that is exactly what I have seen and experienced in these awful cancer situations. A peace that just doesn’t make human sense. God provided peace. That is why it is a peace that passes understanding. I’ve seen God answer prayers and provide discernment. I’ve seen faith in God grow as friends suffered an incurable disease. A demonstration of faith over fear.
Honestly, the oncology experience and how God has sustained and provided through difficult situations is enough to write a book. I feel inadequate trying to simply sum it up in a short blog post. Cancer just stinks. It doesn’t make sense. All we can do is depend on our Savior to provide His strength and cling to the promise that He never leaves us or forsakes us. And finally, hold firm to the grace that has been given to us. The grace that provides eternal life.
Stay tuned…..I’ll re-visit this difficult topic again. Until then, let’s continue to cling to His promises.